before,then and now

3 years back then i was waiting for u untill now but still yet u just keep playing with my heart.

i've changed to be a good guy after i know u.

i left those fucking bastard frens of mine for u

just to be that some for u

but u just cant hold on

there to many reasons for u not to accept me

he got his hook into u too deep

and im keep on lying to my self

pretending that i was happy for u guys

early on january

i feel so down

u was not there for me anymore

i look at my fon

and i threw it away

every single day i was hopping that u would text me

but u din't

then there come the FRENS who always give me "the happyness"

the happynes that i knew if i touch it again i could kill my future

but i guess i have nothing more to loose

then i jump into that drain

i was the dealer

i was the pusher

i was king

i was that monster

AGAIN!

and its all bcoz of u

early oct i was cought by the cops

there was a REVOLVER in my mouth

and all im thinking

if i die i die becoz of u AIN

but would u care less about my life that u destroyed?

would u?

and then u come back for 4 days!

then u fly away again with fahmi

gosh

i tot when i'ved been pull out from the lockups

i could chang again when u were back again in my life

but i tot wrong

well just to let u know

that 4 days u gave me

was the most hapyest days ever in my life with u

where i realy can feel how much u care for me

but i just can last long

then u deleted me frm FB

u wanted me to delete u from my MEMORIES

if only i knew how or maybe u could teach me

for once in my life i cried over a women

i would give my life

even my last breath for u

but why why why???

why it always been him?

even if he hit u infront of the public in KLCC

left u by the hiway

nvr cares about u

on anything bout u

and yet he's still the one

ain i realy hated u so much

someone pls help me

my laughters are all fake

coz the real thing

im dying for this

ungrateful motherfucking bitch

help pls............

now im not selling shit anymore

just a fucking guy who just use it to forgets about tears and sadness

i wanna change but eventuly my best fren would event delete me from his fren list

just to know that i was lockups

to;

mohd athir othman

ada hari lu mesti kena punya wa kasi lu 1 perigtan,

lu tau wa api lu buat taik dgn api

lu mesti KENA punya dgn wa

lu tgu masa .......pukimak lu!