words can't describe

lepas tension
activity after work and my gateaway to get a clear mind
thx to jon kwang for this pic
lain kali jgn curik2 snap ye cibai


yesterday night pegy bukit kat pandan indah :) dah lama tak pegy sana.so much memories indeed.all i can think is about her yes her.i still can remember i told her "dalam malaysia nih byk gila pompuan kan,tapi i tak tau kenapa i leh jatuh hati kat u".hermm few hours before that aku pegy tgk cite twilight new moon.dia paksa aku tok tgk dgn dia.yeah great way to say that you just could not accept me :) as like i was jacob black and MR.F was edward huh :) i phm maksud u time tuh well as u can see.i was the never give up JACCOB black ay..and still after couple of years still im here waiting.today i go watch the twilight eclips alone but this time without any force by u or anybody.i still miss u.i keep running away hiding from u,from so many people.just to get a clear mind.yet i still can't.u was the one and still the one.i really misses ur touch.when i hear ur voice,i nearly can barely breath.but still i have to lie,lie upon everything and hide every single feeling by just acting normal.just want u to know i'm nothing but a plain paper without u.life sucks without u.i just don't know y.i faces more then 50 new women every sigle day and NONE,NONE can give me that special feel when i saw u on my 1st sight.i threw away my dignaty,ego and evrything just for u and yet it still dosen't enough.what else i can say.u've killed a soul,my soul!when all i want is to love u with all my heart.my new year resolution this year is don't fall to fast.but how should i ever fall again when all i had left had been crushed by u.I'm gonna smile like nothing is wrong talk like everythings perfect act like its just a dream and pretend like ur not hurting me.coz i know I know that i'll always come second best,to him that u loved. :) cheers and thank you nurul ain thank you very much.